Sunday, August 1, 2010

a quarter and a half


Clair approaches Cliff with the thought, “We have to do something really special for our 25th anniversary.” To which he quietly replies, “But, dear, we’ve been married 22 years.” Claire: “So?” Cliff, quietly: “What about the 23rd anniversary? I mean you just don’t want to whisk by that.” Claire: “No, I don’t want to whisk by it.” Cliff: “But you just went right to the 25th. I mean, you had the 23rd in your rearview mirror. And the 23rd was sitting there on the curb with its head down and just saying, “I don’t know why she doesn’t like me … just because you can’t divide me by five. I mean, I’m an anniversary and I’m a good anniversary, so don’t be putting that 25 in my face.” [The Cosby Show]




I don’t know why the prospect of '25' meant so much to me this year. But on July 17th, my birthday - it did.


Birthdays are all the same in my opinion - special days, to be sure - but each year is just as important as the one that came before. And the one that will follow. I don’t think that my birthday this year was any more valuable than last years. Or than the one that will come next.

I guess I just realized this year that I am a quarter-of-a-century old. And it started to toy with my mind. In a good way.

For a couple of weeks only, my mom and I shared a special secret. I could say that I was 25 ... she could still say that she was 50. A quarter and a half, perfectly.

I don’t know why this seems like such a neat thing. To me, it does. Maybe it made me realize that I am half of my mom. Or that I’m, in a sense, halfway to being as good as her. Whatever the reason, it made me think a lot. And made me very grateful to have the mother that I do. Thankful for the time she has given me. I’ll be her half, any day.

I'm five years old,
it's getting cold,
I've got my big coat on.

I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you,
I run and run.
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides -
look now, the sky is gold.
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home.

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall -
I know you're not scared of anything at all.
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away -
but I know I had th
e best day with you today.

I'm thirteen now
and don't know how my friends could be so mean.
I come home crying
and you hold me tight and grab the keys.
And we drive and drive
until we found a town far enough away.
And we talk and window shop
'til I've forgotten all their names.

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school -
but I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you.
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay -
but I know I had the best day with you today.

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall -
I know you were on my side, even when I was wrong.
And I love you for giving me your eyes -
for staying back and watching me shine.
And I didn't know if you knew,
so I'm taking this chance to say -
that I had the best day with you today.




Lyrics: The Best Day; Taylor Swift

1 comment:

tammy said...

i never thought it would be possible to love you more now than i did 25 years ago...but i do. i loved the little girl, but i am so proud of the woman you have become...you are so much better than i ever was, even on my best day. and i am so grateful for the joy that has been mine...because of you. you were my life...you saved my life...and i am so happy for the life you have now. mty...ltt!